A New Year. I can’t believe it’s a new year already. But at times, the last year was the longest of my life. 2009 was by far the worst year of my life. I faced challenges that I never wanted to face and had my world shattered.
The New Year is supposed to bring hope and the promise of starting fresh. I am not making any new years resolutions. Not really. I am hoping for the following things this year. These are my “Goals”
My goal is that my genuine smiles will be more frequent.
I hope all of my memories of Donnie are good memories of the times we shared together and not just last year.
I want to find a way to smile thru those memories and not cry quite as much.
I want to continue to help others who are facing the same struggles that I have faced with my writing.
My hope is that people will stop treating me like I am broken or that I need “fixing” and treat me like I am “Robin” again.
I want to find a way to truly move on with my life and find my new normal.
I hope that people will stop judging me for trying to move on with my life. And even if they do, my goal is not to care if they do and to forgive them for being so judgmental. For I am thankful that they haven’t had to walk in my shoes.
My goal is to live everyday to it’s fullest and not take a moment of this life I have been given for granted. I want to make Donnie proud of me. I think he is.