Tuesday, January 5, 2010

a new year

Dear Donnie,




Here I face yet another holiday without you. I am remembering last New Years Eve with you. As we danced and your arms were around me, I knew in my heart that it would be our last. I tried to soak up every memory and every moment of what exactly that felt like. I tried to embed the feeling of your arms around me in my memory so I could reach in and revisit that memory whenever I wanted to once you were gone. I remember what it felt like. I never felt more safe in this world than when I was in your arms.



Facing this New Year without you is scary. Some days I don’t know how I will get thru. But it is on those days that I reach into my memory bank and revisit those memories to help get me thru. Still knowing and still believing that you are still with me all I have to do is close my eyes to see you and feel you there.



Thank you for so many wonderful memories to choose from. I miss you everyday.



I love you

Always and Forever

Robin







I wrote the following a few months ago but wanted to share it.



When you miss me





When you miss me



Close your eyes



I know you can’t touch me



But can you feel me?



I am there with you



In your heart



holding you close







When you miss me



Close your eyes



Stop for a moment



remember how we met



And how wonderful it was



Falling in love









When you miss me



Close your eyes



Remember that laughter



the tears



the life we had together



And know how blessed we were.



For the love we shared









When you miss me



Close your eyes and listen



I am there



I am the whisper of the wind



Saying I love you



And wrapping my love around you







When you miss me



Close your eyes



And forgive me



know that I didn’t want to leave you



But it was time for me to go







When you miss me



Close your eyes



search for me



I am still there



Helping you to go on



wanting you to go on



Giving you the strength



To find your place in the world without me.



Author: Robin Reynolds

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